I have a wonderful testimony about the goodness of God.  Scripture says and Rev. Eric reminded us that the Father knows what we have need of before we ask.  I discovered that in a very real way yesterday.  First, I have to give you a little background so that you really "get" what I mean.

This past Thursday, I was finishing some last minute materials to bring to Milwaukee plus I was so anxious about coming that I didn't go to bed at all that night.  I thought I would sleep on the plane but I was so excited and bursting with ideas that I couldn't rest.  I slept very soundly Friday night but I didn't turn in until late---again, trying to perfect everything.  (Yes, Ms. Dorothy, I remember that I'm special but not perfect. Smile)  Saturday night, still more to be done in preparation for Sunday...Of course you realize that it was definitely a labor of love.  Nevertheless, I was abusing my body by not giving it time to regenerate and it showed because I was making a lot of mistakes.

On Sunday, Ms. Dorothy got me to the airport in more than enough time to make my flight but just when it was time to board, they announced that the flight had been cancelled due to mechanical problems.  I immediately tried to get on another flight but everything was booked.  So they put me up in a hotel so I could fly out this morning.  The Lord knew that I needed the rest and what seemed like an inconvenience allowed me to get the rest that I needed.  I didn't pray for it but I recognized the blessing when it arrived.  That's another part of healing process.  You have to recognize the things that show up as opportunities to restore you to your original perfection ...So please be on the lookout for your seeming challenges.  And trust me, they will come. 

June 26, 2008

"The miracles of the church seem to me to rest not so much upon faces or voices or healing power coming suddenly near to us from afar off, but upon our perceptions being made finer, so that for a moment our eyes can see and our ears can hear what is there about us always."

Willa Cather

Thank you all for holding me in consciousness.

I was sharing with Rev. Eric how much I really appreciate this new family that God has given me. I also shared that there was a time that I would not have shared what was going on with me---that I would have carried the seeming load all by myself. So my ability to share with you is really a healing that I had not consciously asked for but My Father knew what I was in need of. I am so grateful. What I just got present to, however, is that during the time I was trying to carry the load all by myself, I wouldn't even give my seeming burdens to God. Sure I prayed, well sometimes, but it was really one or more of the seven begs, and even then I didn't trust God to help---I
could do/fix it all by myself. My help...my healing was always at hand but I was too independent to acknowledge that "of myself I can nothing." Praise God that my perceptions are being made finer so that I know the Truth.

So, I'm in this place of acknowledgement and I recognize that had I gotten present to something like this prior to my healing that occurred in Wisconsin, I would have beat myself up and gone all in my head with all the coulda, woulda, shouldas and I would have judged myself about it. What I now understand is that I was in that place of independence because of learned behaviors. I was an oldest child of four siblings and I was taught to carry not only the responsibility for self but for my brothers and sister and sometimes my mother and father, too---I was always supposed to be strong. Also, my father was an alcoholic and as a child, I was taught by both parents that what happened in our house,
stayed in our house. So it's not surprising that I don't share much about myself with others.

I have a new thought today. I crossed the line. I know where I was but I know that it doesn't define who I am today.

Reverend Eric, thank you for saying, "yes" to this wonderful assignment from God and for drawing this new family of healers together.

Abiding in God's Healing Love,
LaVonne

June 26, 2008

A Request for Affirmative Prayer for Love, Wisdom and Substance:

Peace and Rich Blessings,

I want to close on the refinancing of a townhouse before records indicate that I am unemployed. Bank of America has already given me a one-week extension (at a cost) so I really need to be at closing by next Friday. It is a rental property that will require a change of the joint deed to my name only. I have already agreed to do that for my husband on the residence that we shared.

I ask that you pray multiple prayers because:

1) Love harmonizes. Mutual cooperation is critical during the settlement of our joint affairs.
2) With Wisdom comes discernment. I am open to the living arrangement that is for my highest good. I don't want to be attached to the outcome of having the townhouse and the mortgage payment that is cheaper than the rent on my apartment.
3) Substance for the abundance. God is my source and I have faith that if it becomes necessary for me to go through any kind of application process after the October divorce, all the resources necessary will be available to me.

Thanks so much for holding me in your consciousness. It is all done. And so it is. I look forward to sharing the testimony.
 

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